Hi, remember me? I’m Heather, and a lot of the time, I’m consumed by fear.
Last week, y’all joined me as I talked about how fear manifests itself in my life. This week, I thought we could take a look at what the Bible says about fear, and what our reactions should look like when worry and doubt take precedence in our life.
“Then Jesus said to his disciples: ‘Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?”
– Luke 12:22-26
You know how sometimes you read something, and it is just a wake-up call? Well, I was doing some Bible study with this post and month’s theme in mind when I read this. It’s so cool and funny and convicting when God slips a verse into our reading that we need to read. This passage was that for me, plain and simple.
Let me tell you a story, and you’ll see how fitting this is.
I graduate in December. For months, I was freaking out because I thought I wouldn’t have a job mid-year. Teachers don’t generally abandon their classroom in the middle of a school-year, so here I was, wondering how I’d find a job and start to pay off my student-loans. Then, I see a post on Facebook from a friend saying the school where she is employed needed a fifth grade teacher for January. Interesting, I thought. So, I applied and was given an interview. I visited the school, observed the classroom in question, and fell in love with the small, Christian environment. I could see myself there. After the shortest interview of my life, I was granted the job, and I accepted. So, the months of worry? Totally not worth the time. But do you think I learned my lesson there?
Nope. Of course I didn’t.
Because, of course, the next thing running through my mind, almost instantly, was I need a place to live. Upon thinking those thoughts, my worry consumed me once more. You see, because this is a private school, my salary is not going to be huge. That’s okay, though. It’s a loving, Christian environment and I can see myself loving going to work and I’ll carpool with my friend. Money’s not really an issue. Temporary sigh of relief. Things are going to be okay except – my credit score is way, way below where it is supposed to be. The details of that are long and we’d have to have a several hour long chat over some coffee – but to put it simply, my family was under the impression I was covered by insurance. I get hospitalized for ten days only to find out that I wasn’t. So, ten days of hospital bills on a poor, uninsured student tore my credit up pretty badly. So now, all that was going through my head was the fact that no apartment manager was ever going to rent an apartment out to somebody with a credit score that bad.
And that was my attitude – one of worry and doubt – until I read this verse. Don’t worry about your life. Isn’t that EXACTLY what I’ve been doing? Worrying about my life? Reality check, Heather. Life is more than that. I’ve been given the opportunity to teach eleven kids. I’ve been given a wonderful education. I have food and I have friends and I have family, and most importantly, I have a Savior who blesses me constantly. And let’s look at the reality – I’m not going to be homeless. I am more than my credit score or my salary to God. I am more than the birds that he ensures are fed. I am his child, and He is going to bless me. It may not be in the way that I always pictured – I may not be renting a fancy apartment on the nice side of town – but he is going to take care of me.
‘Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?’
Sometimes, you just need a reminder.
**You can read more from Heather at Soliloquies and Sass.