God Hath Not Given Us the Spirit of Fear

October 22, 2013

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”  2 Timothy 1:7 (KJV)

Not many people know this, but from the time I was 15 until a year or two ago, I had a serious fear of driving (or maybe it was of having a wreck). It wasn’t just for me; it was for my family as well. I even had the fear when I wasn’t driving…..just riding in a car. When I knew my mom, grandmother, or sister had to go somewhere, I would be stressed and nervous to the point of being sick before they were even gone.

{Let me say here…I had a wreck at 15 (making a left turn) and apparently that is what set the fear in motion}.

I think it could have been considered a phobia although I don’t know what the “phobia name” would be. My fear was so bad that I would stress just having to drive somewhere (I did have to be an adult and go to work…ha). I would try to ride with friends whenever I could. {My friends did not even know I had a fear of driving}. Sadly, there were times when I just wouldn’t go anywhere if I couldn’t find a ride.

…and don’t even talk about a road trip!!

My family goes on vacation to Folly Beach, SC every summer…and every summer, I would be a nervous wreck by the time we would get to the beach house. I would be so nervous and “jumpy” that I made my mom nervous. That is when we started realizing that this fear was a serious problem (probably should have realized it when I wasn’t going places because I had to drive). We realized that I needed something to help my nerves so I went to the doctor and got nerve pills (ok…so they were more like anxiety pills…nothing hardcore.) I was usually okay with not taking the medicine unless we were on a long trip.

{I was not just going to get meds for the fear; I had been praying for God to take the fear away. I had even been prayed for at church, more than once. I had faith that God was going to take care of it but I couldn’t make everyone else nervous while He was still fixing me.}

Being delivered from the fear was a gradual process so I didn’t even realize the change at first. I then started realizing that I was making left turns without much stress. Then! I was actually wanting to drive places. I had offers from friends for me to ride places with them but I chose to drive myself…I wanted to drive! I guess the big “AHA!” moment (or maybe it was more like a “DUH RACHEL!” kind of moment) was once we got back from this past summer’s vacation to South Carolina. I had not even taken a single nerve pill!! …and no one was stressed “because of” my fear!

I’m not going to sit here and say I don’t jump and get anxious at times when in traffic. I would be lying if I did. Yes, Satan still tries to remind me of this fear but I just remind him of 2 Timothy 1:7!

“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”

 

Rachel HeaderI am a 31 year old Southern Belle born and raised in Northeast Mississippi. I have a BS in Mathematics from the University of Mississippi. I love spending time with family and friends, and cuddling with my sweet cat Izzie. I write about a little bit of everything: family, friends, life in general, traveling, the things I love, and the things I don’t. You can find me at Single with a Double Espresso Shot.

Previous post:

Next post: